Friday, March 24, 2006

Hah. Brought my 2day old beanie to school. and it's been placed on lots and lots of people's head. Thought it'd look at least... okay on me. Big Mistake. When i placed my beanie on my head. I Look ROUNDER then before. Goodness.Din really do much for the whole day. Practically slacked my way through I guess. Can't really get all that worried even when the O levels are practically walking to my doorstep. Oh well. Will care about that when the time comes.

Went for my 2nd time TAF for this term. 8 rounds round sch hall. 30 sit ups. 30 push ups. Basket. After finishing all that. Stomach Cramp. Back Ache. Hands practically no energy. I Never felt worse. T_T I couldn't even stand straight. Then went for Lit and mother tongue after that. spent the whole of mother tongue playing with the beanie and cam-whoring. Lol. Got lots and lots of shots. After school, ate "DUCK" rice, then went for Eng remedial then off to Zhen's house to borrow his pc to do our English project work.

Anyways, Enough chit chat. More Pics.

My Own Original Idea. Candid Shots Of The Day.

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Moi's english project group hard at work. =D =X =P
The sky outside zhen's house.
Convicts. JAILED! Muahahah.
Oh. Oh. Oh. this shot's cool.



Zhen trying to get his photo taken. =D
The essay that I was supposed to hand in by today. XD
Hong loves his beanies with his matching orange background =P


Nas starting to get high from Drugs.
Nas gone totally high that she became spastic. XD

Jess with my beanie on.
The dude and his spasticated Oh look.






Haha. I'm Gonna get killed fer this.




Thus. The end. Must have been the longest entry I EVER had.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

So like. yea back to update. Seriously la nothing to post. Days which are intresting and fun, I forgot to update. Then end up, not in the "excited" mood to update lerh. =P

So like. anyways, the march holidays was borriing. Other then some days when I went out. Basically, for the past 5 days, Mon - Fri. I was in school la. every single morning. crap. All for the sake of DnT. Bo bian, later teachers call home then rattle on and on.

So like. I'll just jump jump jump to SW's birthday lors. Morning had DnT. then got released early, lied that I had dental appointment. Ya lors. Then when I went off to meet them, they tell me they head for Orchard first, then ask me zi ji qu. T_T They wanted to bluff SW that I wasn't coming, and when I got there, I'd buy the cake and go surprise her. Hah, seems like she was expecting the cake la. lOl plan failed.

Then like ya lor, ate the cake at the foodcourt at Wisma, the auntie cleaner there even gave us ideas of which spot to take photos the best. =D Haha, the auntie also very de "high" siarhs. Thats when my headache started la. Mediocre headache lor so I tahan.

Then after lunch went to watch the Date Movie. Parody of many many many other romance movies and comedies. haha I kept on laughing laaa. Then they say I laughed the loudest XD XD where got~~~~~

After that went shopping and walking from wisma to taka (not taka jewellery). Wei lun even dissapeared halfway. Amazing guy, I knew he was gonna run but din know he runs so dang fast.

After awhile, the other 2 girls left. So like ya, left me, jess, zhen, chai chin & siao wei. Walked here and there while waiting for hend and ah yew to cab themselves down here. They arrived, ate dinner, watch some band perform for a "short" time then went popular and then home. Sent jessie home with hend. then on the bus, Hend koped my banditto T_T. then He opened it right infront of me and ate. Then hor.. the smell ah. taboleh tahan. Damn strong i had to shift seats to get away from it. Cuz my headache was getting stronger and stronger. even felt like vomitting. Reached home safely la. So like. fell asleep lor. din even go online.
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Then after that, the next few days was borrring. so yea. nothing else to update.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Had cross country yesterday. same place again. thank gawd it wasn't raining =X though i enjoyed last year's rain. me, zhen, xinyi, sam, haha, ah yew and a lil junior kid who followed us were late. XD took the bus that went the long distance and missed our stop XD. Feel so baad la, like lying to that kid liddat. Gomen-a-sai!

When our turn to run came, i got myself some milo (hey! i was parched okay!). then i got knocked by someone and my milo spilled abit. heh, cg sure becomes useful sometimes. Then when we starts to run, my feet hurt like maaad. The path was rock, the bottom of my shoes were so thin i could feel the rocks poking me through it. then the whole nature walk was me ow-ing =/.

Then hor then hor, when me and ah yew finnaly reached the last marshall stop. we saw the logistics faker, firstaider(nana) and the english teacher (wendy). Then I started running lor... (I finnaly started running leh!!) i picked up pace, twisted my foot, fell face flat. Lost 2mm of skin on my right palm, and bruised my left elbow. All the milk i drank sure help XD if not i'd have fractured something. My final year at cross country and i din finish it. (was directed to the st john post b4 i reached the end =X)

After tat hor, we took taxi home lor. 3 casualties mah. bo pian. so many people waiting for taxi laaa, thank gawd jessie found 1 for us. Thanks XD XD.

Then we went for dinner, met up wif nas, then saw chai chin and her fren at burger king. chatted and chatted all the way to some park and then went home los. yep yep. pretty eventful.

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Next day, spent the whole morning convincing people to go watch FD3. end up only had 4 guys. lol pathetic XD XD. The movie was great la. silly critics only gave it a 2/5. Dang bloody though. After the movie, we went for a percussion master game then zhen and xinyi went home los.

Me and ah yew went to cavana for lunch. Food there still tastes the same =P. Then we went to north point to buy stuff. walked quite alot b4 we found what ah yew wanted and got our photo taken. yep. yep. quite okay la today. just lost my naptime XD XD

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Just came back from visiting my daughter, whom by the way is sick. Was pretty eventful, me, nas, derik, ah yew and jules went and visited her. On the way there we played with my phone's VGA camera. took some whacky shots. When we got there, she was looking perfectly fine. Heh, thats good.

My first time visiting a sick friend laaa~ lOl the experience was abit exciting. =X =X. Din buy any gifts though, not enuf $$ and the visit was a last minute thing. So like yea, went over. stayed and chatted till like around 7 then we left. I tell you, when she's sick she becomes even more blur. XD

Then hor then hor, thats about all laa. Nothing much else. Oh and 1 more thing. When she's sick, her voice becomes even more gentler. Haha, dang cute la. XD XD

Friday, February 17, 2006

Wheee!~ I CAN TASTE AGAIN! Damn, i just had to let that out XD XD. The last 2 days was a torture. Being sick in bed, and having less then a plate of rice for my last 6 meals. Wondered how i even survived.... oh i slept throughout =/

To top it off, someone like me who treasures food, lost my own sense of taste. Everything tasted like WAAATeer~. Imagine chowing down on the best burger you've ever seen and smelt then when it touches ur tongue, u'd go... "eeee water". Crap right?!! Damn torturous laaaa T_T. Now that my taste has return... i'm so gonna treasure my tastebuds even more haha.

Oh Oh, something really kewl happened in school today. Some class, forgot if it was 4B or 4C. Yea, they did not go down for DnT lesson. Then Lil`ole`philly came up. then they locked the classroom doors, he couldn't enter then he started screaming... least thats what i think happened. Damn drama laaaa~. Too baad there wasn't a fight.. if not like I not stupid 2 la. =/. U know, if some chers were to find the so called "key" hor, then stuff like this would not happen. Too baad for them.


Oh oh oh, i started a johari's window. everyone has to contribute to my johari window hor!! XD Johari's Window

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Arh basket. Yesterday was valentine day and today I get a fever. T_T Din get anything for valentine's too. Real sad =X. right crap.

If Only we celebrated Valentine's like in Japan. In Japan, they have valentine's day (14 Feb) where girls give guys the chocolates and stuff, either as obligatary gifts or for the one they are really intrested in. Then on White Day (14 March), Guys give girls the gifts. Heh, this way. Both gender receive stuff. XD. Too baaad that we only celebrate V days here in SG. boring~. LoL.

Then then then, today. I get a fever and a god dang headache la. damn irritating can. During chem tution yesterday i was already falling and I din absorb anything. After that, went to maths tution at mark's, with my already sick condtion it's obvious i'd fall sick. So there. Tution causes sickness. Haha right, crap logic.

Well. at least i get to skip philly ng's blabbering and have a valid reason for it. :D

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Haha. Talent Scout Maomon... thats me. Has just discovered and ranked the top 4 best female singers in the class of 4D. Whoot!!!

Well, less talk more ranks.

1. Priscilla (Hard decision i made XD)

2. Puiye (Unbelievable right? but she's good.)

3. Sarah & Kaixin (haha. they are both equally amazing)

You know what. they should all form a group and go join superband la.. if not for the diffrent personalities they have. Haha. heard them sing either on stage, kbox or their recordings. XD. right. this is just some useless post I made. Bored and bored.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

..... Gee, emotions are such a funny thing aren't they. They bring you happiness and security, yet at the same time they bring you suffering and pain.

Lately, I've been doing some thinking. I'm too tired of all this, so I guess I'm going to give up on her. I'm not suitable, I don't have determination, can't keep a conversation going with her. I'm emotionally insecure. Furthermore, everytime we talk, there's like a wall between us. Each and every single time we'll come to a standstill then there'd be this silence. To top it off, she seems to like someone else. I don't see any way I'd be good enough for anybody, even her.

I'm really really tired of trying. Maybe, in the future things might change for the better or worse if a miracle happens. But that seems like a far fetched dream now, or, maybe I won't be able to forget her. Who knows? All i know that, i'm going to stop trying, stop worrying, go back to the old me who never felt like this and is always cheery. Because... it was all just a crush to begin with, nothing more, nothing less.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Haha. Few more days to Chinese New year, then at long last a NEW fone. yea XD

Anyways. Chinese New Year class decoration judging was today. Lots of people stayed back to help out la, lol. This is what I call Class spirit. yea? First time our class stood so united la. Even though leslie didn't do much (maybe he did do something, i just didn't notice la) he still stayed back, now that's commendable XD.

Our class decoration was spectacular this year la, all thanks to kuku's ideas and his whackiness. He even sacrificed himself and wore the clothes which are oh-so-tight + a black skirt. Haha, droolsworthy yea? LOL. He even, bought half a bucket of rice from his home to school la. Insane. But I really do hope our class wins, however this year, we got serious rivals la. 4F puts in the MOST effort (I know, cuz their class started first and did lots of work) 4H has the most insane decoration i guess, they have really really nice decorations. Ya, tough la. Then our class, even though we put in alot of effort, most of our decorations were last minute, so all our ideas weren't portrayed well. Yea, but we still Pwned. haha.

Judges came, kuku danced, I held Weijie's waist and smelt his butt, gd gawd (and no, it wasn't for a obscene purpose all u dirty minders out there. It was a lion dance, and i was the butt -.-") Then the girls even sang la. It's rare to see 4D girls sing new year songs so enthusiastically, in fact. I guess this is the 1st time! So ya, the judges came, they judged, they laughed, they left. Then we kind of cleaned up and left too ya. Din get to watch memoirs of a geisha la. SOO wanted to watch it today. Oh well.




Oh, on a sidenote. I'm feeling kinda depressed now, so i'm gonna take this chance to try my determination. For tomorrow only, I'm gonna be all angsty and depressed. Maybe it might be for real, mayb i'm only acting la. See if I can actually not laugh for one day yea?

Friday, January 20, 2006

Hah. Went to SP Yesterday, then NYP today.

Basically, I only have one thing to say about each Poly. SP is big, NYP's students are high much better then those we have in our own school la.

At SP, we arrived with a large group and after awhile only remained a few of us left. everyone dispersed la. oh well. Took "Queenie's" tour around the campus la, got lost haha. Saw quite a few courses, Electronic and Computer Engineering still intrests me the most. Haha, my infatuation with PCs eh? XD SP has a nice DBit course too, Diploma In Business IT. Business + IT yea? =P Also saw Carrie Chong. Carrie leh! She's like so much better in person la! Other courses wasn't really intresting la, to me at least it doesn't seem intresting since i already have my eyes on other stuff LoL. Right, thats about all for the SP tour. Oh Oh I Liked SP's mass com, or what did they call it again... some Media thing. XD

Now for NYP.

HAHA i won myself a star and a wrist band thanks to my amazing mouth and eye for detail XD. Self praise myself abit XD haha narcissism. Right. Toured the school of IT, Design, Chemical and Life sciences, Business. NYP is like so much better la. More hip for teens i guess haha. It has a shopping arcade. SHOPPING Arcade LA inclusive of ATM. Unlike SP's single mini shop. The PCs there are like so high-end and they got fast food restaurants, a large food court too. Haha. In the IT school, they had a really cool staff la. We was like walking all over the campus la. Quite big also.

Oh oh, went to orchard today after NYP. Din buy anything in fact, i got my feet sore and lotsa fats burnt. lOl. =P. I think i lost 5kg of fats la! XD XD XD Since these few days go poly walk walk walk till feet sore. Must have lost lots of weight haha.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

You know. It's been a long time since I post la. Right, everybody knows that. Okay.
Now since this is a revival post. I decided to post something outta de ordinary.

You know. I've been wondering what the world would be if I sorta disappeared from it. You know, disappearing from people's lives. Yea.

1. The World's resources meant for my use in the future is so gonna be saved, and it can be used to fed more needy people.

2. Singapore would have a lessened burden of 80.6kg and the possibility of Singapore Sinking would be lowered.

3. People would not have to suffer the wrath of my awesome lame jokes. HAHA.

4. People would not have to lose self confidence thanks to my "shooting" skills.

5. The World would most probably have more anger and hate since there's no other "Pacifist" like me. XD

6. Friend's Lives would be so darn freaking dull.

7. One more less person to bully to raise self confidence.

8. Loss of Comedic relief which can only come from me.

9. There'd be one less "talented" singer in this world. (HAHAHA I ADMIT I'm TALENTED!)

10. One more less person to be infected by diseases and in turn infect others.

Hah. there's the top 10 things which would happen. Imaginative eh?

Oh. and on a sidenote. I'm not really seriously thinking about disappearing infact, I do so not condone the act of disappearing without informing ME. Yea. This is just sort of to revive the blog.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Hah! Merry X'mas Everybody! Right, it's actually kinda late for that... oh well =X

Ne ways, had the most fun not to mention tiring christmas i've ever had in my whole 15 years of living.

Went to CHC's christmas drama and service. Haha, funny stuff they have there. Their people sure can make things funny la. They had people do the chicken little dance in the Chicky lil ad and they did it real well =/.

After the service, met up with Derik, that dude actually came all the way down from admiralty to escort me. (he's so gonna kill me for that haha!) =P Then we persuaded... "P-E-R-S-U-A-D-E-D" Sam and nas to come down to orchard to catch Chronicles of Narnia. The show was nice la, just that there was a part when i wasn't really alert and in the zoned out mood, something sudden appeared and i was shocked and i actually "Woah"-ed and shocked PY who was beside me. =P

After the movie we went to walk at Orchard road, while Sam go hi his friends. LoL. Walked all the way to Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station then we all went home. yea. =P

I'm just kinda trying to summarize the day's events yea, so no intentional humour is included here. So no need to laugh =X =X =X

Friday, December 16, 2005

Right. Back from chalet yesterday. 13th - 15th. 2B'04's Class Gathering/Reunion/Outing whatever suits you. Spent 3D2N at Downtown East Pasir Ris Chalet. Had a blast =D

Day 1
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Went to Sam's House early in the morning to help him with NFS:MW. Then met Ong at 10.30 at NTUC to buy stuff for the BBQ. Then went to his house to get my Class Tee.
Then met the rest of the 2B gang at 12. Then we arrived at the chalet at 2+pm

After that, Nigel and Jinhong bathed. (You don't wanna know what they did in the toilet, but boy they sure can make u imagine =P) Then we went to check out white sands and after that, went to pasir ris park and back to the room.

Late at night, we went back to pasir ris park. Night walk. Everybody climbed spider, or whatever that pyramid made from nylon rope is called. After everyone had their fun, we walked back while scaring each other here and there. =p

Day 2
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Had Breakfast at mac, then played cards back at the room, while ong and jules go to collect the satay for the bbq later on. After they came back, we went to Kbox. Kbox scammed us -.-" charged us $5 for 1 small bowl of kacang puteh, pff. They din even told us that it costs that much. In the end everybody had to pay $5 more -.-"

Everyone was pretty high during the kbox 5 hours. After that, we went back to the chalet for the BBQ after we got hurried. Ate abit during the BBQ. Smelt the smoke till I was full =/ (For the first time i ate so little during a BBQ). The girls actually wanted to go swim after that, but then the pool was closed so everyone bathed and went to sleep.

Day 3
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Woke up early, thanks to eunie's handphone alarm. Then me, nigel, jinhong & vincent had breakfast while the rest slept like pigs. When everyone awoke, and packed up. We spent every last min in the room till 10.30 before we left for home.

On the way home, I stopped by Sam's house intending to help him with NFS:MW, in the end i couldn't help him ah well =/


P.S I Got addicted to Nan Quan mama's xiang cao ba pu =P =P =P (I know this is a short post for a 3days thing, 2 bad. I'm not in the mood to type out a long post. ah well)

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Okay. Here's the latest post. Time to recap about what happened on Friday.

Went to CWP around 12+ to get Sarah's birthday present. (yea i know her birthday's a long time ago, so bite me) Walked around every floor of CWP, other then the first floor and the basement in search of the present. In the end. Was about to go meet Sarah, So I just got the best looking present and then bought it, wrapped and went off. Sry if the present sucked Sarah, din have enough time to look for a better one.

Then we watched the movie, Perhaps Love. The one with Takeshi & Jacky cheung in it. Was nice la. Not awesome, not bad. The whole cinema we were the youngest =P The plot of the movie was really deep la. Abit confusing at times too. =X After the movie, met Jules. and went for Lunch. It was an unlucky day for me, kept dropping stuff on my shirt and I even got humilated by a lil arrogant kid at Percussion master. =\

All in all, was a fine day alright. Too bad we missed watching Aeon Flux too. (The movie was at 9pm.)

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Well. Here I am back from my guitar camp. Was 3Days 1Night, you guys might probably be thinking how in the world can there be a 3 day 1 night camp right? Well, Slept in the school for the first night and the remaining nights went home. thats how you get a 3day 1 night camp. =X

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First Day
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Was around 1 hour late for guitar lesson on monday. ah not like anyone actually bothers, since guitar has nobody in charge of discipline and nobody would actually bother to tell on anyone, so ms nur did not find out i was late.

Food during the camp was horrendous i tell you. Total Crap. The first packet of catered food for lunch was so bad that I could not even finish it. (If I can't finish it that means the food is REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD!!) I had to resort to microwaved food from 7-11 just to quell my hunger.

Then basically had free time till the BBQ started and everyone was playing cards and chatting. Nothing much happened actually, quite boring too. Then when BBQ came, well. Nothing Especially intresting happened, quite a normal BBQ la. Just that, since our Guitar Club has only 8 people there, we had lots of food and shared with the VB Girls. (5 sticks of 3 marshmallow each, gone just like that) Oh and Ms Ang and Ms Wong came over to have the teacher's private BBQ lol. Ms Wong camped with the netball girls too.

Our guys toilet was also occupied by the girls, sad. a Typical case of guys being bullied just cause there was around 50-70+ girls and only 4 guys in the whole campus at that time. Then at night our GC went to the fitness area to chat, spoke so loud and laughed so loud that a guy from a nearby block screamed "Shut Up and Go To Sleep LA!" haha, pretty hilarious actually. Then it was super cold at night, wore long pangs and a jacket and I Still felt cold. Brr.

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2nd Day
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Nothing much actually happened today, watched Sisterhood of the travelling pants and just played guitar and poker cards the rest of the day till we went home.

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3rd Day
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The last day of the camp, food practically still sucked. So we had to resort to outside food or drinks to survive. Then the fun finnaly began when we had treasure hunting. Kinda hard to descrive the details and since I'm so lazy i'll just skip the details. Bascially the top 3 won a ticket to catch the movie Princes and Princesses at Alliance Francaise (Don't know if it's the correct spelling, ah well) Jule's French School. And I Got 3rd place HAHA. Lucky me. Then after that, went for dinner with Tyler to BK and then went home.

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Today
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Well on to today's events. Was supposed to go for dragon boating at Kallang basin today, well being the typical me... I Overslept. Was supposed to be in school at 9am and the bus leaves at 10am. Me, I woke up at 10.30am, haha so I kinda missed the ride so I didn't go for dragonboating.

Then instead, I met up with Yee, Rahrah & Jules to go for "Icefalling" at JEC, Jurong Entertaintment Centre. Yep. Went there, and guess what. The Whole ice skating rink was closed to the public because of some competition and the rink was only opened to participants, so ended up. We went to the KBox Opposite the Ice Skating area. I had to sign up to be a member just so the girls could pay $2 less. Lol. Stayed there and sang all sorts of songs, from English oldies, to Chinese Pop Songs. Practically anything which caught our fancy, we sang. Haha, was quite fun la, didn't know that Sarah had a beautiful singing voice for ballads, Didn't know that Jules was suited for songs sung by Girl groups. Didn't know that Yee could hit high notes with a beautiful voice too. As for me. I was told I had a soothing voice. =X

Anyways, Sung from 3+ to 7pm for the price of $10.50 each inclusive of 2 drinks and tidbits. Then had dinner at KFC. Then went with yee to Jurong Library to look for books. Basically, it was pretty fun day. Maybe missing dragonboating was a blessing in disguise haha. Planned to go to icefalling to get hurt physically, ended up going to Kbox to get hurt vocally (strained throats). Ha.Ha.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

well......


DON'T CLICK HERE
Let me tell you a story,

One day, a matchstick scratched it's head


Then it died.

End.

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Lol. right. anyways, here's a funny video to crack you up if the joke above didn't.


http://www.bobricci.com/sbm.htm

and you'll know why girls are not trustworthy.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Has. Today today. Went bowling la. With nas and yee and CC. Had Lots of fun la even though I got the lowest score at bowling. Quite okay la for my 2nd time playing bowling. The ball also darn heavy... (all lighter balls the thumb hole too small... Thumb always gets stuck.)

While bowling.. We took some piccys.
















haha. had a blast today, din know bowling could be so painful yet so fun. =P

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

I finnaly understand what adults mean when they say kids these days are getting so much richer. Really, kids which are 5-6 years younger then me get so much cash. During my time as a kid, i only get 50 cents a day and $1 would be as valuable as $10.

I Swear, even my neighbour's primary school kid gets phones which are so much more better then mine. Yesterday when me and ah yew went to timezone to play percussion master. We spent around 1 hour + watching the same few kids playing the game non-stop over and over like their cards had infinite amount of credits. while we just waited and watch.. and watch. When we finally got to play, we din have time to play more then 1 round then we had to leave. Waited 1 hour for 1 round. bah, pathetic.

Seriously, parents should cut down on their kids allowance if they'r younger then the age of 12, giving them so much cash is gonna spoil them.

In the holiday mood right now, even if i go to school I cannot concentrate. Honestly, the school should let us have our holidays now then we can go party or something.

Nowadays all i ever do is either go zhen's house to crap or stay at home and play the PC. AFTER ALL THE ENERGY I SPENT IN SCHOOL THIS IS HOW I WASTE MY HOLIDAYS. DAMN SAD SEH.

I should be out there having fun like shopping, chalets, ice skating or whatever.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

what`s it like to meet the girl of your dream?
the girl that you know deep down inside your heart,
that you will marry her regardless of anything.
and you also know that the chance of getting someone like her,
is a slim chance so minute, you`ll never get to see another one of her again.
ever.

for once you finally found a girl
that clicks so well with you. in just a span of 2 meets,
you guys are talking like friends who have been together for years.
most of the girls you date took a while to know each other,
and somehow there would be differences, be it taste, character, principles, etc.
and as hard as you try, you know it won`t work out.
so you never went on to a relationship with them.
you left them hanging cold,
but you knew it would save everyone the hassle of a nasty relationship breakup.

and you finally found a girl, that girl that feels like
your female incarnate. the girl that holds principles and have characters
that is so uncannily similar to you that it freaks the both of you out.
the feeling is just so surreal, that you just want to cry out to heaven
and shake you fist at God for mocking you with your own reflection.

and her family, is just so cool.
the weirdest part? it`s almost like yours.
it`s just blows your mind.

but there is that fear in you.
you are afraid to take a further step.
because you never had relationships that lasted long.
you are afraid that once you start, should something go wrong and sour
and it crumbles, you`ll never be able to find this special girl ever again.
and she isn`t just any special girl.
she`s the one you know you want to marry and live with her forever.

Got this off another person's blog when i was bloghopping.

This is the kind of feeling which i myself wanna feel and experience.
Unfortunately I have never ever felt like this before. sigh.